#2. What I Want In A Man

Now, this may seem deep and maybe a lil scary but actually its just something thats been on my mind for some time now. Ive been single now for almost 2 years, well I had a relationship but it lasted a month *sigh*, he didnt tell me he loved me so therefore in my mind due to its short existence it doesnt really count, that was a year ago. So the reason im single now is through personal choice, I could be with someone but unfortunately I am very picky and therefore its hard to find someone I actually want to be with, I realise this could make me look like a complete bitch but I just know what i want, is that a bad thing? is it a good thing? Mostly the reason I am not with someone is because the men I meet turn out to be complete losers and for a long time now i've been wondering if real men even exist. I am single mostly due to the guys i meet not mentally being capable for what im looking for. Firstly I would like to say, I do NOT NEED (need being the important word) a man with money, fast cars, designer suits, rolex watches and I dont want a model. If a guy who showed me the qualities that i want in a man came along and he had these things, i wouldnt say no, hopefully you get me.

So heres what I want:

LETS GET PHYSICAL!
I want a tall man, now when i say tall i dont nessecarily mean 6ft 8, i mean at least the same height, maybe slightly, an inch, shorter, I am 5ft 11 and 3/4 so this is kinda important, so anywhere between 5ft 10 and 6ft 8 is good. Im not one to go for looks, you only gotta see my ex to know that (hardy ha!!), but there has to be something in his eyes, i need to see that his eyes tell me a story, like just by looking at his eyes i can already tell what hes like and then the smile, his smile needs to be warm and somewhat quirky, I like big smiles. As for body size or shape, i really dont mind, Im big so I just like to know his size isnt a reflection of what he expects me to be, cos it aint gunna happen. uh-uh!

OOOH IM SOOO CULTURED
He has to be alternative, in that respects i mean he has to understand the alternative lifestyle and appreciate its key culture ingrediants, that being: 1, Music taste and input. 2, manor of thinking. 3, self expression. i will explain the numbers, 1: ok so this is tough because there are millions of genres of music that arent mainstream so i cant say "he must not like mainstream music" and also its not soooo bad if you do like mainstream music, but i like my guy to be into THE METAL!!! and all associated sub genres are included in *nod* THE METAL!!! I also have a weak spot for musicians/singers and i like that but its not important, even if his only input into the musical world is to go to gigs and festivals then that is all i need for ingrediant one. Number 2, kinda speaks for itself, I just dont want someone who conforms to everyday society just to please, I like a man who isnt afraid to think different. Number 3, self expression comes in many ways and i guess for most alternative people it comes out in the way they dress or if they are a musician then its in the music they write. This doesnt mean i want some crazy wild ass glam metal emo goth punk rocker to be preaning himself in the mirror for 5 hours, I just want someone who can understand the mentality of expressing yourself through the way you dress, and if he does the same then that is all good. I would like to add, reebok and burberry are a definate NO NO!

SO WHATS GOING ON UPSTAIRS?
Ive left this til last because to me, out of EVERYTHING ive just mentioned this is THE most important part of it all. Paint me a picture: Ive met so many guys who portray themselves to be something they arent, all i want is someone genuine. now this is all in the way they think, if they think that im going to be impressed by bullshit, then they are wrong, ooohh soooo wrong, yeah! I really hate it when a guy tries to impress you with "oh yeah baby, well this one time i climbed the outside of the eiffel tower, yep.....thats what im all about" ( yes a guy really said that to me) previously he had told me he'd never even left the country, you men forget the things you tell us. now the amount of times ive heard shit like this come from a guys mouth is untold. I can see through this, and I dont like that, infact that pretty much ruins it all. You can tell so much from what someone tells you when you meet them for the first time, are they genuine or are they trying too much to impress you that its kinda sickening *vom*, I know people have done major things in there life but sometimes guys you just trip yourselves up by the lies you tell. PLEASE DONT! i would rather you said "hey, actually my lifes pretty rubbish, i work 9-5 and i go out at the weekends and im not a superhero" than lie through your arsehole to get me on another date. Take me for me: I want a guy i can run to in my slouching around the house clothes and he still goes "oh my god, you are so beautiful" cos i want them to see whats on the inside, i want them to except me when im vulnerable, and when im happy or sad, lost or angry, emotional from so much awesomeness. I just want a guy to see me and all that i am which is the emotion i have and all that i can give to someone. The truth is we dont do our housework in high heels and our underwear, at times we need to fart, or cry, or laugh so hard that we fart and cry........... oh yeah thats hot O_o ........... I want a man who can be strong when hes faced with fear but not be afraid to show that hes not coping so well and a guy who will come to me when the chips are down, ill be around, with my undying, death defying.......WOAH, moving on! I want a guy who can embrace harsh reality and doesnt shove his head in the sand when things get tough, you god damn ostrichs, or is that emu's, i dont know. I want a guy who is not emotionally stunted and knows himself. A guy who is a gentlemen would be so nice, being gentlemenly is a honorable quality, a lil bit of a romantic is nice. A guy who can listen and much as he talks and enjoys having a laugh with me. When i say laugh i mean, wet yourself from laughing kinda laughter, i love a comedic guy, and i find it sexy when a guy makes me laugh, i love it when guys arent afraid to make a fool of themselves and its pretty much the best way to impress me, why?? cos im the same! I would like someone who can remember birthdays and anniversaries, god that would be good! I would like a guy who understands me, almost like im not a mystery but i am. I would like a guy who can stay commited to me, yeah, that would be good >_<>

i dunno..............

there is so much i could ask for, but its all on an emotional level, i don't want a saint or a psychiatrist, just a decent, able MAN.

Maybe if your a guy and your reading this, you might like to speak up for yourself, maybe post a comment...go on be outrageous! OMG FML!